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Endoscopys Results? I just wanta sleep...

Journal Entry: Sat Mar 29, 2014, 11:26 AM

So yesterday I FINALLY... After three months of pain, got an endoscopy.
They discovered that it is not a stomach ulcer, but instead, something called esophagitis. Esophagitis is the erosion of the esophagus, it's sorta like a stomach ulcer, but it's just in the esophagus. It's caused by a lot of things, however, they are pretty sure mine is caused by the very large amount of ibuprofen I have to take for my cronic back pain, which comes from spondylolthesis, and acid reflux, but that could be a side effect of the ibuprofen. A few months ago, before this started, I tried to get a medication called Duexis, which is pretty much 800mg ibuprofen that is COATED so it will not injure the stomach lining... Well, apparently, if you are not over the age of 85, you can not get Duexis. So instead, they gave me these large white, uncoated, 800mg of ibuprofen... Trust me, they helped my pain. I was able to go to concerts, raves, partys, do photoshoots, dance, go downtown, even survive anime cons!!! Which, I can't do normally because my pain levels are to high. But, because I was taking them close to once a day.... my stomach didn't like that at all.
So, the treatment for esophagitis is the same as it would be for a non bacteria caused ulcer, taking antacids, which I have been. They saw that the esophagitis is just Grade A, and I've been on Zantac (the antacids) for about three weeks, so it's very very possible that it has already healed a great deal then when it was first there. They did take a biopsy of the stomach lining, so I am waiting for results from that....
However, I am still nauseous, and still unable to eat a lot. Like, I've been eating a meal and a half, if even that. And I'm tired ALL the time, I came home after my endoscopy and went to bed, and didn't get up till today.
We are also going to have to figure out some pain management other than mussel relaxers because I can't keep taking them... I mean I guess taking them when I want to go out and do something isn't all the time, but taking a mussel relaxer just to go hang out with friends.. It's kinda annoying. I don't want to have to take something that makes me loud, obnoxious, and out of it, every time I want to go out of the house.

I'm sorry guys, but I really do not know when I will start shooting again. I'm trying to talk my boyfriend into learning how to use my camera so we can do shoots in my room/around the house.... However I'm not sure if it will actually happen.

But... Thank you all for being so supportive!~ :) It means a lot more to me than you think.

  • Mood: Tired
  • Reading: Homestuck
  • Drinking: Green tea


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im just wondering... how many of my followers keep up with my journals? Cause it seems that everyone I talk to has noooo clue whats going on about my health even though I update my journal for that reason. 

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Thanks so much for a fave!:3 :iconkittyglompplz:
garrypfc 3 days ago  Hobbyist Digital Artist
thanks for the fave:)
Thank you for the fave ! :) (Smile) 
I must compliment you: especially because you do not fit in with the beauty standards set by the media and influencing a vast majority, you model with such confidence and with such obvious joy, i cannot feel about it differently but to absolutely be impressed by every picture you put up here and respect all the confidence you emanate. Please do not ever change and go on with your doing.

Kind Regards.
Outnamed666 3 days ago  Professional Artist
Thank you so much, it means a lot more to me than you might think! :)
But can I just say this? I do not choose to have this body, it choose me. If I could have it my way, I would be a lot thinner. I have a large amount of health issues that will not allow me to loose any weight, no matter what I do... So I've just had to learn how to love myself with all my flaws and accept it for how it is, its the only body I have after all.
The ability to love oneself is rare, loving oneself when all odds are against one even more. It is arguably senseless to quarrel about issues that can not be changed and can not be healed, to a certain extend it makes it even worse. But I am sure you know that better than I could. Nevertheless, I find your works to be utmost impressive for mentioned reasons. Especially on Deviant Art, which can be quite a rough place for this kind of thing.
TimeRoses 4 days ago  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you very much for the fave :sing:
KailynDickasonArt 4 days ago  Student General Artist
Thanks so much for the fave :3
LordFreeza 4 days ago  Professional Digital Artist
You have a super cool gallery!!!
Outnamed666 4 days ago  Professional Artist
:) Thank you so much, that means so much to me!
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